You Can Never Be Ready

Would you believe that once in our lives we are meant to meet the one who can entirely change who you are as a person? Many won't believe but for people who have been through a lot in life will surely agree that there will always be this one great person who could totally change your perspective in life, and love it.

A couple of decade ago, I had this girl friend of mine who are so sweet, mischievous, and really fun to be with. There is no dull moment when Amy is around. She joke a lot, laugh a lot and talk about a lot of funny things that was happening to her from her house until her way to the university. She also got a lot of other friends she met from somewhere because she has a bubbly personality that has no equal. She can talk to different kind of person with different kinds of attitude, and she has mastered her way to always make other people happy. And she is the kind of girl who value friendship and family so much so you would feel that her happiness is indispensable.

Amy is also the kind of chic who knows what she really wants and also knows how to prioritize things in her life. But one day, she was caught unguarded by a certain situation that changes her perspective forever. Amy got a job as part-timer in one of the most popular chain of restaurant in the world. She knew somehow that she is working so she can finish her college education on time because her family can no longer afford to bring her more further in the university, so what she does is give it a try to work part-time. What she never would have thought is that she is going to meet the guy who would make her heart pound like a drum. The guy was just an ordinary guy with an average look but with a not so vibrant personality. It seems that they are the exact opposite of each other. Amy was lovable and Jessie is not. Jessie is the kind of guy you wouldn't dare talk to because he has this kind of attitude that is not so appealing to most of us. But despite of all the negative things you can see about Jessie, Amy still fell in love with this guy not knowing the reason why and what this kind of guy has to offer.

We as friends have tried to tell Amy that Jessie is not a worthy person to love so don't put up so much effort in caring for this kind of person. But as they say, when you are in love you would do just everything just to feel the love and you would never listen to what other people are saying because all you want is to be happy. Then, one day I just saw Amy crying telling me that Jessie just walked away from the relationship and never explained and never apologized for the inconvenience he had caused her. That is the very first time I see Amy sobbed like a baby who lost her precious toy, and she cried hard and I can never imagine how devastated she was. Jessie was the first guy she ever loved, and the very first guy she trusted with all her heart. We as her friends stand beside her until she overcomes the fact that Jessie left her without a word. And to make thing worst, Amy found out that Jessie left her for another girl within the workplace. And that is an additional insult to injury Amy endures.

 

As the days go by, I can see Amy lost her sweet and vibrant personality. I felt that she hate the world because after all the goodness and greatness she has shown everybody and a nobody like Jessie has the nerve to hurt her. The old Amy never came back up to now, after the betrayal she quietly pursue her long time dream of finding a stable job and land on a place where she can be happy. And she did everything in her life with a breeze but we can no longer see the funny Amy we used to have. She is never the same after her first heart break and the way she dealt with guys are much more different than when she was with Jessie. And I courageously ask her why she has to change drastically, she told me "I am not stupid not to learn from that painful experience, I just don't want to feel empty and worthless ever again in my life, I can no longer tolerate anybody stepping on me and my pride ever again. All I know is the moment I met Jessie, I was ready to love and even more ready to be happy but not prepared to get hurt. So the next time I will go into a relationship I will not left myself unguarded, I will prepare myself to hurting more than ever because it makes things easier and it makes me feel better." Honestly, I was amazed by her answer and it holds true. When you are looking for love, you are ready to be happy and be loved but never ready to take the pain if things go wrong.

20 long years has gone by and I am happy to see Amy raising a family and nurturing a very healthy married life that she can never imagine. And to make the story funny, 15 years later after the break-up, Jessie and Amy bumped into each other and Jessie immediately noticed that Amy just aged a bit and still holds the same vibrant face she used to have. During the short meet-up Jessie can't help but ask Amy if she's happy now with her life, and Amy just say "Yes, Oh yes I'm happy with the man who will love me more than himself," leaving Jessie with a sour look in his face that aged a lot.