There are some point in time that you feel you are in control. Totally in control of everything, more specially your own life. You do things your way, you do it perfectly, and you know how to make things happen without thinking of any possibility of delay or interruption. And that is how a single person does with their lives each day. They thought everything will just go the way they wanted it to be, and they are not open to any possibilities that their life is going to change even if they never planned any of it. That is how I thought about life when I was single, I thought that I can just be someone I wanted to be, I can decide on any thing with my life without thinking that there is someone I need to share my decisions with. I am single, I am free, I am careful and most of all I don't care.
One day, one of the strangest thing happened and wouldn't thought that this will change my life forever. I am free, I got to do what I want to do, then there's this guy who started to care, started to show that he needs me more than a friend, more than a girlfriend, and he wanted to be my husband. That was like a space rocket going out of the Earth's hemisphere, and you feel like you are floating weightlessly not because you are in a cloud 9, but because it feels like it's the end of your single world. That is what I exactly feels the first time I heard about marriage. I got so many sleepless nights thinking of everything I need to let go and think of the things I can no longer do. And that is why I know that so many people just ran out of proposal and say no! Not every woman or man could ever say yes to such a lifetime commitment.
But there is only one thing I did that moment, I stop thinking. I quit thinking of the things I am about to loose. I quit thinking of how my life would be with him. I just quit thinking about everything that matters, and I just did stop thinking. And I am so happy I did that because I have been celebrating decades of wedding anniversary I have been enjoying every year with the very same man, I married from decades ago. And all I can say, sometime you just need to stop thinking at all. And be happy if that partnership will last till eternity.
